June 9

It didn't take too long! After I posted yesterday, I broke down. As some might say "This shit got real".  My perfect little puppy was sleeping in her cage sound asleep, but for some reason I COULD not! My stomach was in knots and I went to sleep on the couch. I then started Googling "Babies and Puppies"..Whoops! That made it worse! All these wonderful people of the internet world posting about how having a baby and a puppy was a BIG mistake! However there was some that said that it can be good... I craweld back into bed and Tony says "Are you ok?" and the tears start falling! He reassured me that everything would be ok and that we are not the first to do this and we will just take it one day at a time! Whew...I am glad that I cried, I felt so much better!

So we woke up at 6am and Tony had a meeting at 6:30, so I had to get Reagan and Molly up and ready! Good thing that I had 2 hours, cause it pretty much took that long. I was thankful for the 20 minute drive to work, it definatly decompressed me! I never thought that being at JCP with 20 woman would calm me so much. I love the people that I work with, they are so supportive!

I came home and asked how Tony's day was and he was smart enough to invite Grandma over for awhile to break up the day.  Reagan and I stopped by a garage sale to get her new playset and meanwhile Tony managed to get Molly around the whole block without too much tugging. We then went for a little ride to PetSmart to get some very yummy liver treats for Molly (they are the most smelly and I guess the puppies love them) and find out about Puppy classes (they were so great there when we had Ellie)! I definatly think that we need to be using the treats for encouragement more! She is starting to not be as thrilled about only our loving attention.

I know that this is going to be a long journey and Tony is definatly correct in saying "one day at a time". I know that I will look back at this experience and "laugh", but just like when we had Reagan, it scares the crap out of me!

That is all for today, let's hope that there is no more Mommy break downs! Tomorrow, Reagan(minus Molly) and I are planning a trip to the Pool, while Tony works for a few hours. Then Monday, hopefully we can get into a routine!